Sorry its been such a long time since my last posting, not even sure myself the exact amount of days. I was sick for about a week and then my eldest son got sick and in between the two we were really busy and it was valentines day I believe. Being sick did come with a few unexpected joys, because between having a stomach virus and being on medicine that makes it hard to eat I've gotten down to 349(even with now being on my monthly gift) and I've somehow managed to avoid creeping back up the scale in the last week even with my hormones being out of whack and Valentines Day, or the chocolate holiday!
My husband was so happy about my 8 pound weight loss that he joked about getting me sick once a week in order to get the weight off, needless to say he made up for that with really nice valentines gifts. The day itself was really busy for us here, being a school/work day and having to get groceries(a 40 min round trip drive alone) and having to go to a cub scouts meeting, we ended up having a very nice, very late dinner at home. The hubbie ate most of the chocolate we had around so I didn't get into it, he says he was falling on the sword for me, I tried not to be mad even if it was a gift for me because after two pieces I had a stomach ache. I made a really nice dinner for the four of us, dressed the table up fancy, took out the nice china and had a good time with my boys, it was a nice night.
I've managed to still walk a lot through being sick and having a sick little boy, but most of the other exercises has been hard to do , I'll get back there though. Our year old plasma TV died really unexpectedly a few days ago so we haven't been able to use the kinnect or the wii with our fitness games which has been sad. Mostly I'm just mad because we bought the TV based on it being a consumer best buy, it was the brand new model and we spent 800 dollars, which for us is a heck of a lot of money, and here we are 8 days based the one year warranty on the darned thing having a hard time getting the company to come fix it, it irritates me that you can spend that kind of money with no guarantees, but in the end its just a TV and worse things could happen. I just wish I could have used that money for something more reliable.
Taking the medicine hasn't gotten any easier, my stomach is a mass of bruising from the puncture marks and tender so it hurts more every day. The nausea hasn't gotten any better either, its hard to eat when I'm supposed to and drink much water because my stomach hurts all the time. Its been almost a month but I still hope it gets better, I'm glad I haven't had to increase my dose at all, I don't know that I could have handled it! I'm trying to have a better attitude about all of this, I'm trying to have a better attitude period. I've been reading a lot which always puts me in a good mood, I just have to remember to look up every couple of seconds when I'm walking down our road. The weather here is finally starting to warm up, at least for now, and I can almost see grass in part of my yard. After the last 8 weeks of weather we've had here, its been really nice. I've enjoyed some of the walking I've done outside!
Friday, February 18, 2011
Friday, February 4, 2011
New Medication and New Diet, Same Lack of Results
I know its only been a week since I started the new medicine, and only four days since I started the new diet but I still can't help but be a little frustrated that the scale hasn't changed. My husband spent the same four days on the diet and looks lighter, his face even looks thinner and he only has maybe 15 pounds to lose. I have zero appetite for the last week, have been sticking to a diet that is supposed to guarantee results to everyone, and nothing. I feel like crap, my leg and stomach hurt from where I stick myself every night. I'm exhausted from the lack of calories going in and the long days I put in. And I can't sleep because I have to stick myself before I go to bed and the pain keeps me awake, and makes me feel like a giant baby.
I started this blog to have something positive out there to help me stay motivated and I feel like its to much of my complaints and not enough success's. I just can't seem to find a better balance. Not being hungry much of the time has helped stay on this diet, but its made it harder to get enough water in because my stomach starts to hurt from how much more water then food I take in and I have kind of a weak stomach. SO I'm starting to feel dried out on top of everything else. I don't know if I can take being on this new medication much longer. I'm so tired that I haven't been able to swim. I work out but the shear stamina it takes to keep afloat in a pool you can't touch bottom in for 50 mins scares me a little at this energy level. I'm a strong swimmer but I don't take needless chances and I won't swim when I feel this wiped out.
I've been reading a lot, I always read a lot but my husbands put in about 80 hrs this week due to the bad weather so I've been on my own a lot, I think its making me even more moody, but for me its hard to tell. I also found a diary I had started last January(I start one every year, never make it past February)and found it incredibly depressing to be only 3 pounds lighter then I was this time last year. That and reading over my failures and thoughts and hang ups and realising that not enough has changed since then made me feel like I haven't done anything this past year but become a faster and stronger fat person.
I started this blog to have something positive out there to help me stay motivated and I feel like its to much of my complaints and not enough success's. I just can't seem to find a better balance. Not being hungry much of the time has helped stay on this diet, but its made it harder to get enough water in because my stomach starts to hurt from how much more water then food I take in and I have kind of a weak stomach. SO I'm starting to feel dried out on top of everything else. I don't know if I can take being on this new medication much longer. I'm so tired that I haven't been able to swim. I work out but the shear stamina it takes to keep afloat in a pool you can't touch bottom in for 50 mins scares me a little at this energy level. I'm a strong swimmer but I don't take needless chances and I won't swim when I feel this wiped out.
I've been reading a lot, I always read a lot but my husbands put in about 80 hrs this week due to the bad weather so I've been on my own a lot, I think its making me even more moody, but for me its hard to tell. I also found a diary I had started last January(I start one every year, never make it past February)and found it incredibly depressing to be only 3 pounds lighter then I was this time last year. That and reading over my failures and thoughts and hang ups and realising that not enough has changed since then made me feel like I haven't done anything this past year but become a faster and stronger fat person.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Month One Down, Eleven More to Go
So January has come and gone, and ended on a sour note for me. With changing my meds the last week and feeling so sick the last few days I wanted mostly to crawl in a hole and die, I'm back up to 357 pounds. I had gotten to 359 within two days of changing the meds, so I've managed to get down 2 pounds in the last three days but I'm still up 5 from the beginning of the month. As far as my monthly goals I managed to drink my water every day and that was about it. But February is here now and its time to move forward.
February's goals are:
1. Weight loss of 25 pounds, hard for a short month but should be doable, I hope.
2. Continue to drink at least 110 ounces of water daily!
3. Swim at 44 laps in 50 mins (I hope I can get some pool time this month)
4. Cycle one and two on the 17 Day Diet
We started the 17 day diet today, so far the meal plan hasn't been too hard, I'm sure the restrictions would have been a lot harder if we hadn't been cleaning up our diets all last month. There's only a few things we had to cut for the first 17 days so I think I'll be able to handle it. I;m also trying to add more of a workout to what I do. My boys are home today from school because of snow again, and may be tomorrow as well, so I've already gotten in a boxing workout today with my husband before he left for work, and I packed him good snacks and meals for when he's at work so he won't run into trouble. I'm planning some resistance training and maybe another cardio work out, I can't swim tonight because the pool is closed and husband is working an odd shift. But hopefully thursday and saturday I can hit the pool.
Its a new month, I have new goals, a new doctor approved meal plan, and a new medicine. I have hope that I will see the changes on the scale that I've been looking to see, but mostly I have hope. I know that no matter what happens on the scale, the food choices and exercise makes me a healthier person. I'm also applying for classes and will be starting school in the next few months, I'm thrilled to be going back to school!
February's goals are:
1. Weight loss of 25 pounds, hard for a short month but should be doable, I hope.
2. Continue to drink at least 110 ounces of water daily!
3. Swim at 44 laps in 50 mins (I hope I can get some pool time this month)
4. Cycle one and two on the 17 Day Diet
We started the 17 day diet today, so far the meal plan hasn't been too hard, I'm sure the restrictions would have been a lot harder if we hadn't been cleaning up our diets all last month. There's only a few things we had to cut for the first 17 days so I think I'll be able to handle it. I;m also trying to add more of a workout to what I do. My boys are home today from school because of snow again, and may be tomorrow as well, so I've already gotten in a boxing workout today with my husband before he left for work, and I packed him good snacks and meals for when he's at work so he won't run into trouble. I'm planning some resistance training and maybe another cardio work out, I can't swim tonight because the pool is closed and husband is working an odd shift. But hopefully thursday and saturday I can hit the pool.
Its a new month, I have new goals, a new doctor approved meal plan, and a new medicine. I have hope that I will see the changes on the scale that I've been looking to see, but mostly I have hope. I know that no matter what happens on the scale, the food choices and exercise makes me a healthier person. I'm also applying for classes and will be starting school in the next few months, I'm thrilled to be going back to school!
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Doctor's next guess
So today I went to see my endocrinologist whom is still convinced that I'm insulin resistant and pre-diabetic even though they tested my sugars and everything came back fine. He did finally talk me off the metformin that was making me sick to my stomach on a daily basis, for the time being. Instead I now have to inject myself with victoza on a daily basis. Its a drug for people who have diabetes and even though I don't he told me to just take it and disregard any of the instructions that deal with being diabetic, which is kind of all of them. The grand plan is to eventually put me back on the metformin combined with the new stuff, yeah. Did I mention I have to inject myself with a needle every day!
I guess it will be a good scare for me, going through the process of having to inject myself with something everyday in this instance should be temporary and if I stick to my weight loss plan and take care of myself I should be able to avoid ever getting type 2 diabetes and dealing with the possibility of daily insulin. I don't have a problem with needles, I just feel a bit icky having to do it to myself, and yes icky is a technical term.
The weather here has been consistently terrible, it is winter, so I haven't been able to swim like I had wanted, I may still be able to go on Saturday so fingers crossed for that. Today I shoveled snow for a different sort of work out, drank my usual amount of a ton of water and finished reading the 17 day diet. We are thinking about starting it on February 1st. The diet in the book was very similar to things like Dr. Phil's glycemic index diet, the south beach diet and other restrictive diets along the same lines of low-carb, low-fat, high protein diets. There were some helpful things but I wouldn't have called it revolutionary as far as its message. We'll be giving it a try and seeing if it works, I'll post our progress and if it seems to have some merit I'll put some of the meal plans and the basic gist of it here in my blog.
I guess it will be a good scare for me, going through the process of having to inject myself with something everyday in this instance should be temporary and if I stick to my weight loss plan and take care of myself I should be able to avoid ever getting type 2 diabetes and dealing with the possibility of daily insulin. I don't have a problem with needles, I just feel a bit icky having to do it to myself, and yes icky is a technical term.
The weather here has been consistently terrible, it is winter, so I haven't been able to swim like I had wanted, I may still be able to go on Saturday so fingers crossed for that. Today I shoveled snow for a different sort of work out, drank my usual amount of a ton of water and finished reading the 17 day diet. We are thinking about starting it on February 1st. The diet in the book was very similar to things like Dr. Phil's glycemic index diet, the south beach diet and other restrictive diets along the same lines of low-carb, low-fat, high protein diets. There were some helpful things but I wouldn't have called it revolutionary as far as its message. We'll be giving it a try and seeing if it works, I'll post our progress and if it seems to have some merit I'll put some of the meal plans and the basic gist of it here in my blog.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Good lord its cold outside!
Woke up this morning to -5 degrees, before the wind chill, and realized I had to walk my children back and forth to school 3 times in this cold, but its good exercise right? My husband is back on days so its me back to walking at least 2 miles a day back and forth from the school which is good, I live in the mountains so the hills make for good exercise and get me outside for at least 30 mins each round trip, I see my neighbors and the fresh air is nice, but today it was so cold I almost turned around and called the boys in sick! We wrapped ourselves in layers and forged on through the cold.
My weigh in this week was just like last week, no change, its crazy to me. My solution was I got weight training bands and I'm going to add more weight training to my routine and if I'm not completely tired from the extra walking and my regular stuff, I'll also add 30 mins more to my 60 mins of cardio, does that seem like I lot, I guess we'll see. This leaves less time for other stuff, but I'm making a point to not let my blog suffer, or my monthly goals. I'm only going to get two more days in the pool, but I think I can add 4 laps with each trip and still make my goal of 40. My weight loss goal isn't even close, but I think maybe I'll get some answers when I have my next doctors appointment.
Other then the cold and the scale not budging I've been thinking about going back to school. My husband is hoping to go to college in the fall and I'd like to finish my degree as well. I started college before the boys were born and finished my freshman year, but that's it. Its well past time that I go back and finish my degree. I'm a little back and forth about my degree, but I'm sure I'll figure it out as I go. Its about time for me to get my stuff together!
My weigh in this week was just like last week, no change, its crazy to me. My solution was I got weight training bands and I'm going to add more weight training to my routine and if I'm not completely tired from the extra walking and my regular stuff, I'll also add 30 mins more to my 60 mins of cardio, does that seem like I lot, I guess we'll see. This leaves less time for other stuff, but I'm making a point to not let my blog suffer, or my monthly goals. I'm only going to get two more days in the pool, but I think I can add 4 laps with each trip and still make my goal of 40. My weight loss goal isn't even close, but I think maybe I'll get some answers when I have my next doctors appointment.
Other then the cold and the scale not budging I've been thinking about going back to school. My husband is hoping to go to college in the fall and I'd like to finish my degree as well. I started college before the boys were born and finished my freshman year, but that's it. Its well past time that I go back and finish my degree. I'm a little back and forth about my degree, but I'm sure I'll figure it out as I go. Its about time for me to get my stuff together!
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Brick walls were made for running in to
So after a few weeks of meager/non-existant weight loss, which to be honest follows a nine month trend of non-existant weight loss, my husband has been back online looking for an answer to the whole thing. For the most part we're both kind of tired of me being on a medication that makes me sick all the time for no good reason. It was supposed to help me lose weight, and for a lot of people who are insulin resistant or have Poly-cystic Ovarian Disease it does help, not only to lose weight but in those issues as well. The problem is I have neither issue and the medicine makes me sick to my stomach all day every day. It would be nice to get off of it.
My husband thinks I have an adrenal issue because the symptoms list reads like the story of my life, but the problem is its hard to get diagnosed. Today we went through the first round of doctors visits, a trip to my Primary who told me he could refer me to surgery for weight loss or shake my hand and wish me better luck with my endocrinologist. So next thursday its off to see my endocrinologist and hope he'll order the tests my husband wants done. My husband is a lab tech and was mad the Primary didn't order any tests because he was hoping to go to the next doc with the missing puzzle pieces but now he has to hope the other doc will let him run the labs in his lab because the other lab takes forever. But my primary said he didn't see the point in ordering tests he couldn't understand the results for, makes me feel real good about having him for a doctor!
Its a constant issue we have in having military doctors, they can do surgery, that they understand, but being weight loss resistant has them stumped. They deal with everything else well, and to be fair its not exactly a daily issue for them, most of their patients have to keep in shape to keep their jobs. Its just becoming harder to deal with working my butt off on a daily basis, keeping insane about my diet, drinking enough water for three people, and trying to keep the rest of my life in balance only to see meager if no improvement on the scale.
I guess in the end its just hard for me to believe that there isn't just something I'm doing wrong, but if there is no one has caught it yet, not my team of doctors, not my super fit husband and not me. I wish I could just pinpoint one issue that needed more work, one thing I could do just a little but better and the whole thing would just fall into place. I keep hoping that can still happen, in the meantime I'm going to get prodded and poked a few dozen more times just in case there's still some medical mystery that needs figuring out.
My husband thinks I have an adrenal issue because the symptoms list reads like the story of my life, but the problem is its hard to get diagnosed. Today we went through the first round of doctors visits, a trip to my Primary who told me he could refer me to surgery for weight loss or shake my hand and wish me better luck with my endocrinologist. So next thursday its off to see my endocrinologist and hope he'll order the tests my husband wants done. My husband is a lab tech and was mad the Primary didn't order any tests because he was hoping to go to the next doc with the missing puzzle pieces but now he has to hope the other doc will let him run the labs in his lab because the other lab takes forever. But my primary said he didn't see the point in ordering tests he couldn't understand the results for, makes me feel real good about having him for a doctor!
Its a constant issue we have in having military doctors, they can do surgery, that they understand, but being weight loss resistant has them stumped. They deal with everything else well, and to be fair its not exactly a daily issue for them, most of their patients have to keep in shape to keep their jobs. Its just becoming harder to deal with working my butt off on a daily basis, keeping insane about my diet, drinking enough water for three people, and trying to keep the rest of my life in balance only to see meager if no improvement on the scale.
I guess in the end its just hard for me to believe that there isn't just something I'm doing wrong, but if there is no one has caught it yet, not my team of doctors, not my super fit husband and not me. I wish I could just pinpoint one issue that needed more work, one thing I could do just a little but better and the whole thing would just fall into place. I keep hoping that can still happen, in the meantime I'm going to get prodded and poked a few dozen more times just in case there's still some medical mystery that needs figuring out.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Week 2 weigh in, Same old me
No change this week, but I'm still figuring out my eating and working through my work out plan so I'm not terribly worried about it, I probably should be more frustrated then I am but I finally got back in the pool on thursday and that does wonders for my nerves. Been boxing on the wii a lot as well, its become a bit of a competition with my husband over punch counts which makes me put in a little extra work to beat him.
He's been working 12 hour shifts all weekend though so I've been alone with the boys trying to get through hanging around the house but its only made a long weekend longer. I have been re-learning the joys of mario kart and managed to catch a couple dramatic and sad movies my husband would never watch with me like the pianist and the legend of 1900. Probably wasn't the best choice to watch three sad movies in a row because all it did was depress me a little, but nothing like a little friendly competition on the wii to bring the spirits up, kicking but and taking names always warms the soul!
Still drinking water and spending more time then I'd like running to pee but its good for me, at least that's what they tell me. I managed to add 4 laps so I'm only 8 away from my monthly goal, so as long as I'm getting towards goals its progress. I'll get there, maybe not when I wanted to, but I have the faith to see me through when the determination is harder to find. Will power doesn't seem like such a dirty word to me, and its getting easier to find in myself, which has been the biggest surprise of all!
He's been working 12 hour shifts all weekend though so I've been alone with the boys trying to get through hanging around the house but its only made a long weekend longer. I have been re-learning the joys of mario kart and managed to catch a couple dramatic and sad movies my husband would never watch with me like the pianist and the legend of 1900. Probably wasn't the best choice to watch three sad movies in a row because all it did was depress me a little, but nothing like a little friendly competition on the wii to bring the spirits up, kicking but and taking names always warms the soul!
Still drinking water and spending more time then I'd like running to pee but its good for me, at least that's what they tell me. I managed to add 4 laps so I'm only 8 away from my monthly goal, so as long as I'm getting towards goals its progress. I'll get there, maybe not when I wanted to, but I have the faith to see me through when the determination is harder to find. Will power doesn't seem like such a dirty word to me, and its getting easier to find in myself, which has been the biggest surprise of all!
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